I typically let water/insults/digs/annoyances run off my back. I figure the person spewing the insult doesn’t know me nor do they have any clue to my journey.
I run – A LOT for a gal my size. Running has done a few things for me:
- Running makes me fit
- Running tones my muscles making me firmer and less jiggly – true story
- Running makes my skin look awesome
- Running clears my head
- Running helps me think
There are a gazillion other reasons but those are the first ones that come to me. We could talk about this all day – but that is not my point.
I was running (surprise surprise) on Sunday along Rich and Famous Blvd. This is a busy spot for lots of city runners who like to have a view of the river valley. I am one of them. I like to see different things while I run. I was at about 6km into my 10km run when I passed two moms in their lululemon’s pushing two jogging strollers. They were both carrying – what I first thought to be coffee or lattes but after we spoke I suspect to it be Hot Water and Lemon. A trick of skinny people who don’t workout. They drink it to keep full and stay thin. In my day it was called a coffee and a cigarette. I ran by them and over heard them talk about me.
Skinny1: OMG look at the size of her ASS.
Skinny2: Why doesn’t she run on a treadmill so we don’t have to look at her.
Skinny1: I know right? I would DIE of embarrassment.
Skinny2: Why didn’t she just stop eating when she got the chance.
Me: (At this point I stopped and turned around) So I hear you have some questions for me. Lets have a quicky Q&A session right now shall we? First Question: It is 4 sizes smaller and 80lbs lighter than it use to be. Question 2: I have a BRAIN TUMOUR. It isn’t cancerous but it isn’t fun. I get dizzy on the treadmill. Besides, running 10km on a treadmill is dead boring and I never would have had the opportunity to meet the likes of you. (That’s right I played the brain tumour card, I am using it to my advantage when I can. If you don’t know the story about it then please click here and no I am not dying) Most people speak before they think but that requires common sense.
Did I really say this? Yes but not that last sentence because they j-walked to get away from me. Perhaps they will keep their comments to themselves from now on.
Is this a typical day for me running? NO WAY! Luckily the world is filled with kind and supportive people who are just happy for others.
Running on Sunday at about the 5km turn-around point I met a older (than me) couple out running both of them gave me a thumbs up. Most runners wave and say hi – but occasionally I get a “Great Job” or “Keep going”. It is a lot like being in a race with fan support. On the whole, I find Edmonton Running Community to be supportive and kind. It is a lot like the running communities I have discovered on-line. People are kind, supportive, helpful and just plain ol’ nice!
Today I ran hills at Emily Murphy Park. I was the only woman out there today. So obviously I was the only fat girl. I was surrounded by an entire phys.ed class from the University of Alberta – all of them men and all of them in fantastic shape. I got a lot of cheers and some fellows ran with me encouraging me to go just that little bit farther before I die. I didn’t die, there is something about being able to focus on shapely young calf muscles that pulled me through. After they ran off and back to class, another young fellow began his descent, running towards me. He smiled and gave me two thumbs up as he passed.
Either I look like death warmed over when I run and people are surprised I am able to breath OR people are just simply nice and encourage each other.
I have had run-ins with lots of people who are repulsed with my body type. Joking about it with your husband or friends isn’t cool. I am sure YOU have some sort of short fall that you would be mortified if I pointed it out. Obviously I am thinking of one gal in particular who happens to be just mean to everyone. I bet she even kicks the dog when no one is looking. My point being is, if it doesn’t hurt you – leave it alone. This same rule of thumb can be applied to Gay Rights and Marriage. It isn’t up to you to judge them. If it freaks you out to think of them having sex, don’t think about it. It freaks me out to think about YOU have sex too – so I just don’t think about it. If you took the time you spent being mean to others and spent it on yourself working on what makes YOU happy, then I think you wouldn’t have time to hate everyone else.
Just let it go.
Be nice, even if you don’t mean it, because one day you will be treated nice back and it feels good.
This is me after running:
Caution Fat Girl Feeling Great AFTER HER RUN!
And you know something? I am starting to look great too :)
- Big Girls DO Work Out: The Plus Size Princess Fitness Challenge! (blogher.com)
- The Fear of Fat (lamentsandlullabies.wordpress.com)
- Love Your Fat Self (wgst303.wordpress.com)
- In Defense of Skinny Girls: Tackling The Taboo War Between Thick and Thin (madamenoire.com)
- The Skinny on “Skinny Fat” (leanonlife.com)